I was going to try to always keep this upbeat and positive but I need to get something off my chest.....Please people stop telling me how sorry you are for me. I and every other military spouse out there DO NOT want people feeling sorry for us. My husband did not die he is just at work for a while. I am fully aware of how much it sucks and how hard it is to be a single parent so please stop telling me how you just don't think you could do it. I really don't have a choice and I am trying really hard to make the best out of a shitty situation. No I didn't want him to leave and yes I miss him all the time but when you look at me and YOU get all teary what the hell do you think that does to me?!? I have dug out my Super Woman cape and am going to be just fine. I may have my moments but don't we all? I don't need sympathy I need support. I need to laugh and relax not answer a million and one questions about whether or not I worry about Joe getting shot ( and yes I have had to answer this one a few times) or my favorite "Do you miss him?" Are you kidding me? seriously this is a dumb question. How about instead you ask what Joes address is so you can write him OR even better ask me to go out for a drink sometime...now that would be awesome!
O.K. I feel a little better. Please know this wasn't directed at any one person I just needed to get it out.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
D-day
And we're off....Joe left this morning....
Last night was hard. I think all the trying to be strong came to an ugly ugly head last night. i cried and vented and went to bed hoping this morning would never come. but it did and here we are. He had to be at the airport super early. We got there got his bags checked and stood around for a while until I knew it was time. we didn't go up to watch the plane leave that would have been way to hard. So we gave one more hug and "I love you's" and we parted ways. Saying good bye is ALWAYS the hardest part. We will be ok in fact deployments seem to make us all stronger we all rise up instead of letting it get us down. These first few days will take some adjusting to but in a few weeks we will be like a well oiled machine. Thanks to ALL of our family and friends for the support these last few weeks. You have all made them great and i know that the time will just fly. or at least I'm going to pray it does
Last night was hard. I think all the trying to be strong came to an ugly ugly head last night. i cried and vented and went to bed hoping this morning would never come. but it did and here we are. He had to be at the airport super early. We got there got his bags checked and stood around for a while until I knew it was time. we didn't go up to watch the plane leave that would have been way to hard. So we gave one more hug and "I love you's" and we parted ways. Saying good bye is ALWAYS the hardest part. We will be ok in fact deployments seem to make us all stronger we all rise up instead of letting it get us down. These first few days will take some adjusting to but in a few weeks we will be like a well oiled machine. Thanks to ALL of our family and friends for the support these last few weeks. You have all made them great and i know that the time will just fly. or at least I'm going to pray it does
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Been a while
Hey all been a while. I got busy with all the end of the school year stuff and then summer has been non stop. Anyway I will be better at updating this. We are just under a week until Joe leaves and I'm sure there will be lots to talk about in the next year sometimes it may be rambling but oh well gotta do something when I can't sleep.
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